
Thursday, July 17, 2008
When things go mad!

Thursday, July 10, 2008
Sunday, July 06, 2008
when crushes happen!
Sometimes I wonder, in't it weird that when u r in love, the person u love seems to be the most beautiful person u've ever seen?
And if that is true then, everyone who is in love thinks that the person they love are beautiful! Well I was going thru this random blog about - "How to get over your crush?" and this blog, very prominently popped in to my face out o google. I read it... the blogger said,
"He is beautiful. He is the sweetest, most intelligent and funniest person to know, he's wonderful and the best personification of love! but while im gushing about this person i know he isnt gushing for me."
I was baffled! I couldn describe having a crush any better, your world seems to revolve around this person. Its the most weird feeling one can have and when u r feeling it, u don't seem to be bothered about sounding stupid or being 'UNREALISTIC' in my case!
Ok so I had been out covering this event last saturday night and I went mad laughing, it was a stand-up comedy show and this comedian did seem to know his stuff. He was perfect on stage! There hasn't been any other time in my life that I've laughed so much!
With all the problems at home and so many responsibilities, I seemed to have lost my personal touch to life. It was more like I existed and not lived. I had friends and relatives but all these years that I've been alive seem to pass by me like its happening to someone else and this person is coping with all these things and yet being alive. I hated those phases where things got worse at home. I cried myself to sleep every single night consoling myself that everything would change next morning but just woke up to realise each day how much I hate being at home! I left home early morning and came home late, even on holidays I either went to college and sat with a book or sat in my room at home with a book!
But now things have changed...sometimes I think it would be so much more better to just run away to nowhere but its so difficult with faces of everyone in my family popping up in front of my eyes...
anyway life moves on and things do change, I'm waiting for that one change...lets c when it comes.
The topic for this blog isn't that anyway!
Its my crush and how exciting that phase is... Haan so I met this comedian and had an interview with him- oh it was a telephonic and then was in touch thru mails and stuff and then that stage of oh-I-like-him-but-I-know-he-doesn-care came about and i tot i'm this worthless person and all and oh so much agony it was
but its so weird its almost like a circle, it starts and goes on and ends...just like that ends...! and u look back and think how stupid i've been!
Friday, July 04, 2008
Live and Reporting!
I so love reporting, its a package of everything I always wanted!
Meeting new people, covering events in the city and writing!
It seems to me the most perfect job I could ever be in. I just had an offer from google and Mt, they offered me more than double of the salary that I get here and its been a tough time convincing myself that THIS is what I love doing. I know I'll still give my best at any other organisation I promise my services to but I'd rather do something I love than something that indirectly tempted me in to loving the job.
This place has major issues that need to be demotivators but these same reasons are making me firm about giving my best!
Reporting is what I've loved and will always love it!
Also when in college, I so din't realise the major differences between working in a print or electronic media company. Now, I so do!
One thing however remains the same, and I speak from experience - the B's are the same...a big nose, fat and borin ;)
Monday, June 02, 2008
*Nasty Grin*

Scene 1: At work, spoke to this dude! Apparently m not the only one with the same story. Oh how much happiness is over flowing. Hehe... Ok so here goes, apparently he worked as reporter for 3 yrs and applied here and was told "Ya We'll put you on to reporting Tomorrow, next week, next month" That never happened! And its been one whole year and 3 months and he's been on the desk, pretending like this's his dream job! He din ever let it slip that he's not likin it... it took some neat bit of my investigative reporting skills to get this bit of info out.
And now for the big one...
Story 2: Enjoyin yum dinner at office...another gal, same story, one year, no reporting, SHE QUIT!!!
wow, thats what i call proper revolution now i say. atleast someone's fighting it out, good
one shud do what one's made for, rather than accept whats being forced on them!
I'm in full mood of revolution!
wat fun it is...hehhee
This is labour man makin us do stuff v don want to!
Time for some action...Yahooness happening.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
hate hate hate this place!!!
like i was called by this certain city editor or something, dono her exact post, ok so she tells me, keep ur phone on silent,no calls durin work hours- i always keep my phone on vibration except for the one day that i forgot and my phone started ringin-apparently some person complained- i have to say this its my blog anyway- the same person and the editor herself has her phone ringin every half hour. HYPOCRISY at its best u may say
and she goes on to say no internet for me!!! disgusting!!!
wat am I supposed to do during the 6 hours 45 mins of my 7 hour job when they dont give me work??? bhangra???
anyway i'm so freakin pissed today that i cant even stop posting this keepin in mind the advices well wishers and elders have given me AND i apologise to u pradeep sir and shreerekha ma'am but i cant but hate this place.
me, along with 2 interns- who have their own story of discrimination in this organisation-(will post their story later) were just sitting as we were given no work and this chick walks in and stares and comments oh ORKUT WATCHERS COMMUNITY- WAT THE HELL ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO- oh i so so freakin hate this psycho place...
This person who's new too older than me tho, taught me the tv page and now when my boss tells me to do it myself he gets pissed with me and if i try to ask him somethin that i cant remember he frowns and cribs and acts all weird...SO IRRITATING
i came in today and this computer with the internet was free and so i just sit to check my mail for 5 mins and this man- i hate him so much for his constant unending giggling with another man just behind my desk-walks in and stares and says-loud enuf for the editor to hear who's sitting in the opposite desk- and says "EXCUSE ME" -- like i broke the computer or somethin...oh such a .
anyway i know these minor things shouldn matter and i shud adjust to the place but my only argument is that i would have cared a damn for all these silly things and persisted, had the job been somethin i really enjoy, something i'm born to do...but this ISN'T
I'M SAYIN NO MORE, MY ACTIONS SHALL SPEAK!!!
Thursday, May 08, 2008
random madness
Sometimes...nothin makes sense
I dono wat to do then
have been waiting
its been almost 5 years and a weird thought caught me today
i haven felt really really happy about anything in the last 5 years...I haven laughed loudly and heartily in the past 5 years
ive been awake, ive been alive, ive been around, ive done this and ive done that, ive achieved this and lost that, ive been sad and ive been depressed, ive been ok and ive been laughing, ive slept and ive sat, but still the things are slow,,,im waiting
im waiting
from so long... id have died by now
so many things changed and still do.
i feel sad and i feel low
i want to cry... no shoulder... no tissue too
its sad
im caught almost trapped
between wat i want to do and wat i need to do..
pain so terribly unbearable
hunger
fear
depression
expectations
wants
needs
torn
fear
madness
pullin me down
cant type
pain...its hurting
someone stop this
im not likin it
I NEED A LIFE!!!