lots of shit

well lots of shit happening!!! mis-understandings, accusations (false) and crappy stereotyping! why is it that always people tend to mis-understand circumstances and dont even make an effort to come and clear their doubts about another person (if its bothering them so much), before calling them offending names! all i told him was that the whole class is speaking bout u, and lo wat it is interpreted as is that i'm actually like snitchin? like after what happened last year i'm really really bothered to speak bout things like these! my own bloody friendly relations are screwed and ppl think i'm out there scrwing their realtions.
A two year long friendship, good times at mid day and pjs all lost in the unconscious, all that remains is the present memory of the insulting words she used. i respected her for what she is... i liked her as a good friend, someone whom i'd remember and want to know after college. but all ruined! its k life moves on and things do change but the only thing that will not change is the pleasant thing that we once shared...Friendship! peace out!!!

makes sense...

"Good Life starts only when you stop wanting a better One"

friends turned foes...

I dono why but i think of my diary and blog only when i'm terribly dejected or sad... whats happenin around me... everything's just spilling past me like water and for no fault of mine. i seem to have been isolated and am so mis understood by everyone. and the worst part is that the people who till today were like my best pals have all withdrawn like as if i suddenly got off some communicable disease. shit this feels so sad and depressing man. but thats not the point the point is that though i keep saying that things aren fair and bull, today i'm actually going thru the unfairness. shit man the word hypocrite suddenly makes sense...i first thought that no one could be one but suddenly i seem to be surrounded by sooo sooo many of them. awww this feels terrible don wanna put up the reasons here but the point is that i got shortlisted in this cnbc talent search thing and have the jury round tomorrow i gotta be motivated or i'll majorly screw up and i don wanna do that... and i dono what i'll do in the interview tomo with such a rotton mood. awww i'm hating every moment of this.... i just wanna shout out loudly 'its NOT my fault...' i tried so hard to get these things in order but the point is forget the positives people just and just shun u for nothing!!! and moreover the food well ohhh don wanna write bout it here coz no one really wants to know nor does anyone care... what else? one more thing that is totally irrtating is the fact that this world is so ______ (i don ve a word) i mean every second on earth u have to prove urself to people i mean y cant i just be me and be happy? why do i always have to show the world that hello guys i exist too??? i mean like y??? shit i'm totally frustrated and i cant say how much this is helping. the point isnt that anyway the point is i don wanna be here i jus wanna run away to an unknown place and sleep for the rest of my life if i cant die... but i really want to i'm sick and i've had enough i mean yeah i read it somewhere that if everyone's turning against you n no one supports u u should persist so they know that ur not wrong but thats not the point here the point is that the world is full of unfair people and at times i'm one of them too but the point is its hard to face all this especially when 'ITS NOT YOUR FAULT' i'm so shattered don wanna stay in coll anymore will skip the third year if i ever get a chance jus don wanna be here...especially wit these people. jus realised how much i hate this place. ofcourse there are exceptions i still wanna be naresh sir's student and a part of his classes but a part of nothing other that!!! nothing else makes me want to stay here anymore. i don mind dropping out. guess i'll get a good job also have enough knowledge to start as a fresher in any organisation too... i don wanna do the third year will tell my parents today i jus hope they don mind... even if they mind i don care this place sucks i cant breathe here even for a moment so why should i stay in a place that i don like? i shall leave and be free someday. nothin against coll but jus the people!!!!

jesus save us....

well this is going to be really really rude and abusive
the first day of college starts out with the initiation of torture "you have a new teacher for journalism this year" no points for guessing who told us this...so do we have any winneres, yeah we do!!! the teacher who was more than GOD for us he enters class the first day and all of us are happy in our own worlds happy coz we're looking forward to a whole new year of interestin classes with this gentleman and the first day this is what he tells us...
well y this was done to us is not known but i'm sure whoever did this is being cursed by each person from 2nd jpeng every minute...
y us??? what the hell did we do its not our fault and this new person supposedly teachin us journalism keeps reminding us of how inferior in knowledge we r in comparison to him...and my heart feels like shouting out "look dude whoever u r just get the hell outa here...we dont need u" liek hel;lo i have some manners in me i respect him for whoever he is but there's a limit to torture and just coz we're autonomous that doesnt mean that teachers jus walk in to our class and do whatever they want wit us..
every minute in college i feel like a goat bout to be slaughtered any oment and this isn't fair the worst part is there's no unity. everyone hates things that r happening but no one says or does anything bout it WHY WHY WHY!!!!
why do we have to tolerate people we dont like
i swore on my forst day that i'm not going to listen to a word of what is being taught in the journalism class and true to my word have been following it...its true when you don't like the teacher it influences the interest in the subject too...i've hated the subject since the start of this year...
WHY us????
shit i'm so pissed and frustrated with things???
I WANT ANSWERS !!!!
WILL SOMEONE GIVE ME ANSWERS ??????

movie spoof

well the worst thing we ever did and the only day i enjoyed to the core...
i dono what made me go participate in movie spoof this year.saturday morning i come to college go to the class look at the notice board and see that movie spoof prelims today at one and i dono what had gotten in to me i ran down spoke to some first yrs and in half an hour i had a team ready... now while sitting there everyone's staring at me expecting me to say somethin and i'm wondering y i'm doin this but at last we got started and came up with ultimate nonsense and worst of all we went and performed toooo!!!
i mean how stupid can i get??? but yeah what the hell i atleast participated noone else bothered to...
now after we were done priyanka and me went to the kiosk ate something went to the pebbles park and burst out laughing at all those stupid things we've ever done together (like standing ouside the media lab, too embarassed to ask for re-embursement-however thats spelt and making a fool out of ourself when sir suddenly came out) anyways we catagorised this movie spoof thingi as the most stupid thing we've ever done together...
and now when i sit on this ugly looking red chair and make the tales of our stupidity immortal, the only thing that washes away the smile off my face is the wicked looking eyes of whoever this guy is who sits next to me and stares at me evertime i wanna laugh loudly...i dono what that means but i'm a lot more confused now than i usually am...whatever.!

why am i here?

its been a long time since i posted somethin... saw lzafeer's blog and got inspired to post. well all of us(atleast lazy bums like me) need their share of inspiration.
a hell lota things happening nowadays. in to this media relations thing and its like half my time i'm in the media lab or running around in the buses to give in the press releases. aayio its becoming a pain now...i dont really like this kinda life dono what on earth had gotten in to me that i landed up here doin journalism...probably a peaceful happy calm life is what i'd dreamt of and here i am... in to a field where expecting a peaceful life would be impossible...
but its damn cool too sit around with friends doin nothing basically... saurabh,jd ,malli and me oh my god what fun v all have...will always treasure these moments.
u'll find us all round college at one point of time we're happily swinging on the cafeteria chairs and the other minute we're in the food court jus lazing around...dono what keeps us so long in college but its jus solid fun.
and then the ripping on the bikes oh god never had such friends and anever had such fun...

its all happening

its all getting started now, all the fun all the excitement bout the fests and its evenmore exciting coz we are organising inprint this year...it was just 3-4 days back when i was sitting in the journalism class with my head down crying coz i thought i wasen doing anything for inprint.was sad coz i wasent given any resposilbility, was wondering if i was so useless and unproductive that i was just sitting around in class jobless while the whole world around me was working hard.i had done my part tried for sponsers, got the posters made and put it up on the notice boards and involved myself in to it. it was like the joy came back to me i was so happy i was working.
Deepa ma'am asked me one fine day if i ever get tired. i din't know what to say i stood there in amazement thinking to myself stumped by the question. thinking of all that i do sometimes even without knowing i'm doing it, shouting all day in class making announcements, running around for the chief guest, making posters, dropping suggestions bout the decorations, deciding the appropriate judges and yet going and attendind seminars... ah seems like a long list but its fun. at the end of the day i can proudly say i've had an eventful day...well i do get tired but i have a sound sleep if i've done something creative...touch wood.