Tuesday, July 29, 2008

when things go mad, part II

Its just too stupid when things go mad and you dono why it is like that! I mean most of the time its difficult to actually figure out why things affect you the way they do and then it becomes even more irritating when things get all complicated in the mind!
The point is, I hate it when people act all indifferent and crazy.
And i hate it even more when people who are supposed to be mean and evil, act nice!

PS. It makes no sense I know, don't ask (one of those mad & irritated phases)!

Monday, July 28, 2008

The cutest, sweetest, nicest things happen to you when you least expect them... and then they go on to become memories, good ol' memories!
I climbed up the door and opened the stairs,
Said my pajamas and put on my prayers,
Then I turned off the bed and crawled into the light,
All because you kissed me goodnight!

Next morning I woke up and scrambled my shoes,
Picked up my eggs and toasted the news,
I couldn't tell my left from right,
All because you kissed me goodnight!

That evening at last I felt normal again,
So I picked up my mother and called the phone,
I spoke to the puppy and threw Dad a bone,
Even at midnight the sun was still bright,
All because you kissed me goodnight!

Heard of perfect poetry??? *wink*

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Intense emotions...

I've crossed 20 and I've spoken to a lot of people who come from different backgrounds, have different upbringings and most importantly different mindsets. I got along with many and failed to strike a chord with a few... either the thought process didn't match or we just didn't understand each other. But for the first time in my life, today - I spoke to someone, read something that was destined to change my entire outlook towards life. I dono why it happened, it wasn't supposed to be so spectacular and dramatic, but thats just how it turned out to be. I dono why that piece of writing hit me so hard!
It was a grave issue and was written brilliantly but how and why that affected me like this is something unexplainable (as are a few other things that have been happening in my life lately... like meeting becky and papa CJ).
One thing I'm sure of - it wasn't because of who the writer is and how much he means to me personally. Whatever anyone else has to say, I know thats not the reason.
The issue discussed - well it doesn't affect me so much, but as a reader it really appealed to me and it ends there. The style of writing and the way the emotions were explained was amazing - I could feel the fear, the anticipation and all the weird things, it was very intense and deep, beyond anything I've ever felt. But nothing more than that. It was just an issue discussed and a good piece of writing.

Why then, did it hit me so hard? If it wasn't the writer, wasn't the theme, wasn't the emotions...then why did I go all weird?
I was right here at work and still wasn't.
I felt everything, but was still numb.
I was breathing and the clock ticked away but the world seemed to have come to a standstill...
Why do such things happen? Can written word cause so much impact? Why?

If I were reading this, I'd laugh and think its too dramatic, but it isn't coz before today I've never read anything so perfectly thought out and framed - that you tend to stay in that world even after you've finished reading the piece.
True harry potter did that to me, but that was all...ah i dono what to call it...that was different. I knew that wasn't true. I was sane enough to point out and return back to the REAL world. But now its all going mad...the world is toppling over and I can't balance out my emotions.
Wow! I feel elated- only in the negative sense of the word! I dono what that means... so please don't ask!

But I had to record this feeling and I've done that.
Well, been thinking about this other thing for quite sometime now and its the perfect time to mention this as well. Talking to a person surely deepens your feelings for the person, in this case it is love! :)

Saturday, July 19, 2008

The Dark Knight vs The Joker

The Dark Knight premier

Well, lots of "first-time" things happened last week:
1. First time I saw a Batman movie
2. First time I saw a movie with Prerna
3. First time I got back home at 1:30 am.
4. First time I rode back home at 1:15 am.
5. First time I got stuck in a traffice jam on M G Road in the midnight.
6. First time I loved a villian in the movie.
7. First time I lived life my way, did things that I love.

Ok so I'd been to the premier of 'The Dark Knight' the sequel of Batman Begins (2005). Loved Heath Ledger as Joker.
This is the article I wrote for Metro, Deccan Herald - its the event coverage:

Before darkness gripped the hall at Fame Lido, where the premier of ‘The Dark Knight’ was to be held, there were cheerful faces sharing their anticipation about the much-awaited movie. While the celebrity guests did a bit of catching up with friends, the kids gaped at the Mattel toys and merchandize displays. Actress Ramya, Designer Namrata G, Leena Singh, Cine Star Diganth and many more were seen striding along the foyer at the theatre. Amidst excited chattering and cordial hello’s, the movie commenced. Like a wave of cold water, the audiences were silenced while the Joker did the talking. Played by late Heath Ledger, the terrifying impact he left as a heartless yet engaging and memorable villian, was applaudable. And while the characters took the audience from one emotion to the other at a lightning pace, it was a sight watching open mouths and concerned faces. The intermission came at a much hated juncture when the audience were taken over by the curiosity to know what happens next. The pipping hot popcorn and chilled pepsi did all it could to tempt the audiences to indulge, but the wave of excitement left celebrities and others alike - waiting to get back inside.
The second half was gripped with the same exhilaration and a lot of action. The silence that prevailed in the hall after each dialogue was delivered could be interpreted for disappointment if one din’t turn around to see the crazy glint in every eye.
The movie is an adaptation of the DC Comics character Batman and a sequel to Batman Begins (2005). The American superhero film has been co-written and directed by Christopher Nolan. The crux of the story is built around Bruce Wayne’s - alias Batman’s (Christian Bale) fight agianst the ‘agent of chaos’ the Joker (Heath Ledger) and his strained friendship with district attorney Harvey Dent (Aaron Eckhart). The agony between Bale’s love for Rachel (Maggie Gyllenhaal) and Dents involvement is complicated yet moving. The fall outs between an organised society and mobs are put to test while the character of the joker attains immortality.
While darkness swallowed the Dark Knight and the last lines were pronounced, some broke in to applause while others wiped a tear. The audience left the hall starry eyed and awed at watching the quest of Gotham’s very own Dark knight to fight the growing criminal threat.

Sheetal Sukhija

Thursday, July 17, 2008

When things go mad!

I start to feel like I can’t maintain the facade any longer, that I may just start to show through. And I wish I knew what was wrong. Maybe something about how stupid my whole life is. I don’t know. Why does the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy, the need to put a happy face on sorrow, the need to keep on keeping on?... I don’t know the answer, I know only that I can’t. I don't want any more vicissitudes, I don't want any more of this try, try again stuff. I just want out. I’ve had it. I am so tired. I am twenty and I am already exhausted.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Crushes again!

Read this bout crushes!!!
"Ride it out, enjoy it, and let it die its natural death."
makes sense...

Sunday, July 06, 2008

when crushes happen!

Sometimes I wonder, in't it weird that when u r in love, the person u love seems to be the most beautiful person u've ever seen?

And if that is true then, everyone who is in love thinks that the person they love are beautiful! Well I was going thru this random blog about - "How to get over your crush?" and this blog, very prominently popped in to my face out o google. I read it... the blogger said,

"He is beautiful. He is the sweetest, most intelligent and funniest person to know, he's wonderful and the best personification of love! but while im gushing about this person i know he isnt gushing for me."

I was baffled! I couldn describe having a crush any better, your world seems to revolve around this person. Its the most weird feeling one can have and when u r feeling it, u don't seem to be bothered about sounding stupid or being 'UNREALISTIC' in my case!

Ok so I had been out covering this event last saturday night and I went mad laughing, it was a stand-up comedy show and this comedian did seem to know his stuff. He was perfect on stage! There hasn't been any other time in my life that I've laughed so much!

With all the problems at home and so many responsibilities, I seemed to have lost my personal touch to life. It was more like I existed and not lived. I had friends and relatives but all these years that I've been alive seem to pass by me like its happening to someone else and this person is coping with all these things and yet being alive. I hated those phases where things got worse at home. I cried myself to sleep every single night consoling myself that everything would change next morning but just woke up to realise each day how much I hate being at home! I left home early morning and came home late, even on holidays I either went to college and sat with a book or sat in my room at home with a book!

But now things have changed...sometimes I think it would be so much more better to just run away to nowhere but its so difficult with faces of everyone in my family popping up in front of my eyes...

anyway life moves on and things do change, I'm waiting for that one change...lets c when it comes.

The topic for this blog isn't that anyway!

Its my crush and how exciting that phase is... Haan so I met this comedian and had an interview with him- oh it was a telephonic and then was in touch thru mails and stuff and then that stage of oh-I-like-him-but-I-know-he-doesn-care came about and i tot i'm this worthless person and all and oh so much agony it was

but its so weird its almost like a circle, it starts and goes on and ends...just like that ends...! and u look back and think how stupid i've been!

Friday, July 04, 2008

Live and Reporting!

Been almost a month that I've been reporting for the Metro Life, Deccan Herald. Its just the most wonderful job I've ever done!
I so love reporting, its a package of everything I always wanted!
Meeting new people, covering events in the city and writing!
It seems to me the most perfect job I could ever be in. I just had an offer from google and Mt, they offered me more than double of the salary that I get here and its been a tough time convincing myself that THIS is what I love doing. I know I'll still give my best at any other organisation I promise my services to but I'd rather do something I love than something that indirectly tempted me in to loving the job.
This place has major issues that need to be demotivators but these same reasons are making me firm about giving my best!
Reporting is what I've loved and will always love it!

Also when in college, I so din't realise the major differences between working in a print or electronic media company. Now, I so do!
One thing however remains the same, and I speak from experience - the B's are the same...a big nose, fat and borin ;)