hate hate hate this place!!!

As much as people tell me to love the place i'm in rite now, i can't. however much i try, there are certain things people cant help but hate!!!
like i was called by this certain city editor or something, dono her exact post, ok so she tells me, keep ur phone on silent,no calls durin work hours- i always keep my phone on vibration except for the one day that i forgot and my phone started ringin-apparently some person complained- i have to say this its my blog anyway- the same person and the editor herself has her phone ringin every half hour. HYPOCRISY at its best u may say

and she goes on to say no internet for me!!! disgusting!!!
wat am I supposed to do during the 6 hours 45 mins of my 7 hour job when they dont give me work??? bhangra???

anyway i'm so freakin pissed today that i cant even stop posting this keepin in mind the advices well wishers and elders have given me AND i apologise to u pradeep sir and shreerekha ma'am but i cant but hate this place.
me, along with 2 interns- who have their own story of discrimination in this organisation-(will post their story later) were just sitting as we were given no work and this chick walks in and stares and comments oh ORKUT WATCHERS COMMUNITY- WAT THE HELL ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO- oh i so so freakin hate this psycho place...

This person who's new too older than me tho, taught me the tv page and now when my boss tells me to do it myself he gets pissed with me and if i try to ask him somethin that i cant remember he frowns and cribs and acts all weird...SO IRRITATING

i came in today and this computer with the internet was free and so i just sit to check my mail for 5 mins and this man- i hate him so much for his constant unending giggling with another man just behind my desk-walks in and stares and says-loud enuf for the editor to hear who's sitting in the opposite desk- and says "EXCUSE ME" -- like i broke the computer or somethin...oh such a .
anyway i know these minor things shouldn matter and i shud adjust to the place but my only argument is that i would have cared a damn for all these silly things and persisted, had the job been somethin i really enjoy, something i'm born to do...but this ISN'T

I'M SAYIN NO MORE, MY ACTIONS SHALL SPEAK!!!

random madness

Sometimes...nothin makes sense

I dono wat to do then

have been waiting

its been almost 5 years and a weird thought caught me today

i haven felt really really happy about anything in the last 5 years...I haven laughed loudly and heartily in the past 5 years

ive been awake, ive been alive, ive been around, ive done this and ive done that, ive achieved this and lost that, ive been sad and ive been depressed, ive been ok and ive been laughing, ive slept and ive sat, but still the things are slow,,,im waiting

im waiting

from so long... id have died by now

so many things changed and still do.

i feel sad and i feel low

i want to cry... no shoulder... no tissue too

its sad

im caught almost trapped

between wat i want to do and wat i need to do..

pain so terribly unbearable

hunger

fear

depression

expectations

wants

needs

torn

fear

madness

pullin me down

cant type

pain...its hurting

someone stop this

im not likin it

I NEED A LIFE!!!

IRRITATED...

From the past few days, i've been surfin thru naukri.com and timesjobs.com...its the most irritated i've ever felt in my life.
Time to remember all the mistakes i've made in life-
1. Quitting mid-day just coz I got BORED. - Its as Ridiculous as I can get
2. Taking up the responsibility to organise the Farewell for our seniors - Got misunderstood as terribly as anyone could get
3. Went to Chattisgarh, Came back to Bangalore - Both of these ruined my life, changed me, made me a different person. The real me is hiding, somewhere deep inside...and comes out very rarely when faced with rare circumstances and surrounded by people who really understand me.

Of all these mistakes I think this present mistake isn't a really big one - Joining Deccan Herald.
Anyway I had to do this to see how grave a mistake i've made.
Sensible people might laugh it of sayin "come off it, this isn't a mistake at all"
Honest people might add to this "Its all a part of life and this is a learning experience"

The TRUTH:
I HATE THIS JOB!!!

I just so hate this place and the work they make me do.
Shit i'm dying, i'm so irritated.
I've been through the best of positions, best of jobs, best of sallaries being offered-its all available and i'm sure i'll get those jobs if i apply- But i'm stuck @ DH.
Was speakin to Kevin the other day and he tells me Indian Express is offering more than what i'm getting paid here @DH.
Doing something i'm least interested in, sitting @ a place and working.
I hate this!!!
I hate this so much...

Workin @

Well I know its too early to pen down my experiences bout DH, but still the first week @ work has been pretty eventful.
DAY 1 - Monday- came to office @ 10(my reporting time) and met Mr.Nambodari....He tells me I gotta come back @ 2!!! Damn... i'm stuck now...do i go back all the way home or wait...but where... anyway did somethin...came back @ 2 and m sittin...waitin...waitin...They din give me any work to do.. its so weird. I mean nothin.
DAY 2 - Tuesday-I get 2 articles to edit...Suspicions rise...m goin mad...editing editing...bored...editing... I HATE THIS JOB...
DAY 3 - Wednesday-Dyin... someone get me out of this place...came ...editing... bored... hating this place... waiting to talk to someone...silence and keyboard noises killing me...actually the silence around almost murdered me... haven spoken to anyone for 3 days in a row...shocked that i cud stay silent for so long...met Priya! Friendly gal... Sub Editor...actually even m one apparently...still bored. tomm's leave...may 1st- labour day...yipppieeee!!! finally...i'm runnin away and never comin back...
spoke to Priya.. She's totally opposite... as in I told her i enjoy more of Reportin although I don mind editing and stuff ( HORRIFYING LIE ) anyway and so she's like i love sitting @ a place and workin rather than runnin around reportin. We had dinner together...got to meet a few others.
Went home - small tiny very tiny feeling of yeah the place is OK...JUST OK came up... Sleepin...
DAY 4 - THURSDAY- YEAH!!!TV, food, sleepin, Harry Potter Book one... (started re-reading the entire series a few days back) DID NOT MISS OFFICE AT ALL!
DAY 5 - FRIDAY - Came back...lookin 4 priya... not aroun yet i guess,, anyway...waitin for work...nothin as yet...
3:40 pm ORKUT'S not blocked anymore... yahoo...!!!
4:15 pm ORKUT'S borin...!!!
5:00 pm Work arrives... 3 articles to edit...thank god have somethin to do atleast.
5:30 pm Idli vada sambhar
6:00 pm work done...waiting
6:00 pm Thinking... "have checked out the profiles, rumours, gossip, pictures, articles and criticisms of all the cute actors (tv and movies). Nothin to do... oh boredom!!!
6:30 pm 'Creation of a genius' -- Name of my new poetry collection. Theme- Boredom @ workplace..
ok this is getting too much
DAY 6 - SATURDAY - Going to miss Roadies today :( office timings r 2-9pm.
Lotsa work...actually to be precise 4 loooonnnnggg articles to edit.
Mid-way discussions wit priya over Harry Potter, Rodies and Fiction.
Breaking News- NIHAL'S dad is one of my seniors @ office!!!
not REALLY excited,,, jus yeah ok types excited.
cool
I always tot, sincer day 1 that my boss s a expressionless 'like I care' types lady...but she called me 4 dinner tonite,,, waited till I logged out and had dinner with priya and me...I know its not somethin really really big... but still i expected her to be this 'SHUT UP YOU TRIANEE' or 'MY GOD THESE TRAINEES MESS UP THE JOB' types chick but she turned out to be pretty ok.!!

Anyways...saw the last over of the match in office today and FINALLY... Bangalore Royal Challengers won!

DAY 7 - SUNDAY - Blogging! its 6 pm and no one..as in my boss and her boss and his boss isnt in office yet...dude my reporting time on sundays is supposed to be 3 pm (to 10 pm) and hello i've been here 3 hrs now...whr r these guys??? give me some work before I die???
have u seen someone begging for work like this!!! ever???
anyway..office is good, next month am reporting 4 d school edition...no more sub editor!!! enuf sitting in a place and sulkin...

almost forgot the big fight with Mr.JT and huge mails explainin why I hate my first job!!! and replies from him to peace out...and be patient and calm,...!!!
anyways have taken his advice and am sticking to DH for a while now... say 3-4 months and lets see how things turn out!!!