random madness

Sometimes...nothin makes sense

I dono wat to do then

have been waiting

its been almost 5 years and a weird thought caught me today

i haven felt really really happy about anything in the last 5 years...I haven laughed loudly and heartily in the past 5 years

ive been awake, ive been alive, ive been around, ive done this and ive done that, ive achieved this and lost that, ive been sad and ive been depressed, ive been ok and ive been laughing, ive slept and ive sat, but still the things are slow,,,im waiting

im waiting

from so long... id have died by now

so many things changed and still do.

i feel sad and i feel low

i want to cry... no shoulder... no tissue too

its sad

im caught almost trapped

between wat i want to do and wat i need to do..

pain so terribly unbearable

hunger

fear

depression

expectations

wants

needs

torn

fear

madness

pullin me down

cant type

pain...its hurting

someone stop this

im not likin it

I NEED A LIFE!!!